3rd collage panel--intention and witness

make an intention:

spend 10 minutes tearing and taping
witness after cleaning while aj's at bb practice

witness:

make an intention: 7:54pm

enjoy this b & n (barnes & noble) moment w/my daughter

7:56 enter the silence, write what i see:

today's collage is taped as a page to the right side--inside the love letter/watch panel. i see my dad--no. write what i see--physically see with my physical eyes. i see enter here. your daughter. your son. an old man in a plaid shirt and a life jacket an dsunglasses and a baseball cap holding a fishing rod--with a boy--a grandson's age--holding a pole, the direction handle for turning the motor of a boat--they are in a boat--they are evocative of a grandfather and grand son in a boat--when i found this image and taped it down to the index cards, i found myself remembering the kayak trip--aj with steven, dad following after--crossing the bridge--watching my boy with that man--the only boating experience my father had with my son. i see the words "at any other place, the idea might never have been born." i see a sailboat--for outward bound in the lower left corner. there are at least four people in the boat--on an ocean--calm and blue with a clear sky aside from a hint of billowing cloud. i see the words: it's too big for one person to solve. it's going to take all of us, working together. the good news is, the solution already exists. i see the love bus--the bug bus i fantasize about. i see the man--the business man--the professional man, relaxing by the fire with a scotch in his hand. i see the words: your brother, your sister, your mother, your father, your husband. i see the words magical lifetime and our situation is temporary and the little line drawing of the hour glass. i see the couple holding the map outside the ruins of rome? i see the upper right hand corner the words money can't buy happiness. then the paragraph from the outward bound ad: leave the familiar behind and seek a world of adventure. outside, challenge yourself to climb mountains, run whitewater rapids or sail the open ocean. inside, go far beyond what you thought you knew about yourself, your capabilities, your dreams. set sail on one of 500 wilderness adventures--and be amazed at what you'll discover within. no experience necessary. this challenge belongs to you.

finish side 1, 8:13

drive from b&n to the school where aj's bb practice is this week

8:45 make an intention:

i witness the other side of the collage--i write what i see 'til 9pm when it's time to get AJ from practice.

i see another story. isn't it wonderful to be the only item on the agenda? then the script--recently my husband lost his job and things have been tight. rediscover your family and friends. the bottom line, start earning tomorrow. peace of mind. how do you redesign the fire most beloved family trees are like every other tree. they need water. very carefully--a new generation has arrived. the power of dreams. life. the numbers. together we can. moments, memories. this is start up do-it-yourself. follow your inner compass. welcome to your imagination.

finish: 8:51

now ask: collage--what do you want me to know?

collage: there's a story telling itself through the journey of this book that's emerging--the collage shaking things up, calling things out--stories telling themselves under the surface of things and here there are secrets? re-telling--might never have been born. women who want to make a memorable entrance. there is some bridge your dad is making--or you are attempting to make with him. there is a wall of fear--a space of reaching--a child's missing of having a dad in the world. you are grieving. give yourself some room. trust. wait. breathe. unload. let go of EVERYTHING--everything you can let go of. things are in your way--old energy, stuck ideas that do not belong to you--they are his? your genealogical ancestors'--someone else's. they have no air to breath in that you do not agree to breathe for them. there is no room for those thoughts. stop thinking them. remember--time is elastic--and elapsing. do only that you KNOW you love. live with no regret--enter here: your daughter, your son. how do you redesign the fire? my beloved, very carefully. family trees are like every other tree--they need water. a new generation has arrived.

all we can ever have: time and each other for as long as we make time...to have each other--at any other place, the idea might never have been born.

constraints defy time. take time with you.

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wild life
sparks my passion
it is my love
a precision
fantastic four
as beautiful and seductive
the past inspiring the future
an inspiring icon is reborn
don't simply purchase--
one acquires
offering a true sense of
well being
in soul, body and mind
recalibrate your spirit as your soul
letter perfect
the art of achievement
in the service of pioneers
and discoverers
the long road
a different take
the art
the world
the art
privileged travel
system of your dreams.